My odyssey

Posted on Kamis, 21 Juni 2012 by lia yulistino sugiono

Have u ever felt like being in a hot shiny sun afternoon in your cozy window while listening 70’s – 80’s songs ?

I was today , and i was all alone , i stared at the window , looking at an empty small narrow street,with burning sun high up above , dragon flies flying around everywhere outside ,dry weathered atmospheric with old songs backround tht i heard from a distant , just perfect for my dwelling.

And when i was looking at the window of that empty small street outside...It was so quite ...it was so dried ...and there was no one ...

Then...
I touched my heart (literary) in a sudden ... i was thought it hasnt got beat , i thought it just stopped only for a second or so...
Have u ever felt like u want to say something or its like when u wanna tell your whole life story to someone but u couldnt just do it?somehow there’s something hold u back , or pull u back.

I am now feeling tht way , not because i dont hv friends to talk to , but i dont know ...sometimes ...just sometimes there was a time when u cant tell everything to the whole life world...

As i feel tonite ; i am in my fading grey of my own odyssey

I dont think it was a dream...

Posted on by lia yulistino sugiono

I dream of you in many different faces , places , beyond limits of time.those dreams came in thorough my mind , my thoughts , my soul in many different of episodes.once there was happy and strange , once there was sad and blur , sometimes they came into me in beautiful many colours of hopes , mostly strange , sometimes frightened and strangled me on my cozy bed ...however non of them was real.

My dreams of you sometimes Put me in doubt for most of time but assurance me sometimes , strange things to feel when virtual and real collide . i'm flowing lightly onto somewhere i couldn't describe.. they didn't stuck me up til now , but hurting me down in my heart at nite.if you weren't there i wouldn't be here , painting my mind on my own glorious sentences to feel myself moaning in my own grief

It's so amazing how these things and dreams and everything lead me , all of my hormons in my brain , captured my thoughts , and have me had this heart to feel about all of this.i'm flowing not floating not yet falling.but its hurting heart i found.leak

And there i go ....flowing .i would cried to you to take me though i can never promise you my devotion .i would have..but somewhere beyond my thoughts...i never see anything.i don't see you . though i could have seen you ...i might see you ..

AN INSIDIOUS DESCENDANT

Posted on Rabu, 13 Juni 2012 by lia yulistino sugiono

I CALL THIS AS AN INSIDIOUS DESCENDANT ....

And I will have to fall myself to the edge of doom and let someone free me

And when all of the love songs that all matters to a love , I will have to sing it differently then , I noticed my own grief ...and beyond all of the sorrow...
I will always wake up , every morning with every freed that comes up..and know ..always know...even if its free...there’s always end not yet safe , not even bound

But then I notify of beautiful reef nebula eyes that always set me free
For all of my weakness , sadness and torture
high up above that reef nebula ...there’s flying golden dragon is waiting for me as he always promise me...

I feel and see my own freedom in darkest edge of all within another luck and lust in my deepest purest soul towards another souls

GLASSY WINGS AND AN UNBROKEN VOW

Posted on Selasa, 12 Juni 2012 by lia yulistino sugiono

beyond the horizon of my deepest purest soul...I miss you as you're a scar..I got it but never can I loose it.these words , also your words...insinuated detached my brain as a real and virtual collide within ...

take a vow within my soul , make bondage , but don't bent them,build your wings to fly to me,but don't get closer to the sun,and if you fall,let you fall on me and drown yourself in me
then ; find,get and be with your freedom!!!,Icarus. That’s a freedom whisper , me as your Freedom

like I always remember your sentences , Icarus ...
"and all Icarus want;was only Freedom,is only Freedom,will always be Freedom,and its "U", Freedom ... I'm free as you're always be a Freedom,my Freedom,the one and only Freedom."

So then...

fly to me with your wings,bring your hopes,dreams and wishes and find me in my deepest purest soul,safe me for I will always free you,as I always be your freedom who's longing to be within your soul's vow.high up above the 18th clouds and let you fall.. I will be here,in an unbroken vow..
*as always and its a promise.(*under term and conditon)

I vowed my soul into your heart ,so take it , struggle it , fight for it , but don’t let yourself nor me die for it , say it for it IS a REAL