THIS IS JUST ONE OF MY DEPRESSION PARAGRAPHS IN my own DIVINE ZEN LOVE HEALING..

I am not afraid of growing old ,As in fact i always want to always look old And hoping more people seez me in my old . I passed my wonderful great life in my common cozy daily activity Just like another normal Indonesian young woman , I always save my day , no matter what bad things happened on me each day and I do sometimes pray to my GOD to be greatful,thankful,and mostly ask for help :D

but

The hardest time in my life is When i’m in this desperately mellowing sad situation , it’s When my soul shades thousands of tears but my eyes dried And knowing that someone I really missed is not mine anymore not that because im still in great passion of love But its more because i regret things happened before which were lead me into it.

And yes that’s hurt so bad , and wasting my youngest time , wasting all of those fortune goddess’ chance that were given to me
But then again i have wonderful family , wonderful friends in my real life that support me and always courage me , and also some of my virtual friends that always be there ...for my 24 hours

Clay was once and twice and three times ( maybe now he’s getting bored of me whining up and complaining...) told me about how to survive and how to fight ,struggle in a painful condition , and yes i think about what he said over and over , and i think he’s right.however , i still think about my heartache.i never thought being in this situation before , i never thought that i would hurt , but yes i thought about it,but i was thinking about happy ending story....not in this painful kind of story..
I remember what clay said to me ; “you deserve to have good friends who lift your spirit up. I'm happy I can be a friend like that to you! “ and how he remind me ; I hope you are happy and well out there, and just remember that if anything troubles you, there is always something or someone beautiful and valuable near by, all you have to do is forget your worries and open your heart to the good things that exist right there in front of you , he’s virtual but he presents into mylife so real , impact me in good positive way.i’m glad i have him as a friend.

This bad story , i must say was began in a first beautiful opening story that you’re not even would expect bad things on me could happened , but as what they say it is...BAD THINGS ALWAYS HAPPEN TO A GOOD PERSON , and that good person is ; ME..

Some of my other close friend is Mei Wina that i often to chat with , she might feel boring too listening all of my complaining .

To my dearest friends who i never met ;
So glad i knew you guys online , though we’re in virtual , but your support and that you’re always be there , is really strengthening my soul.

I know that Both love and loss gave me with extraordinary life lessons. Some of these are elegant; some shatter me and bring me to my knees in devastation inside my heart and my soul.but i know that They're all necessary to open my hearts to wisdom and faith. I know I am stronger than what i think!

We all know that hearts are healed in time, but I believe that there are things i can do to make the process of inner healing just a little more tolerable.
It helps to remember that the pain is in the resistance. It really is true that what i resist persists. The more i fight reality, that which i cannot change, the more pain i experience. The more i surrender and let go, the more i open myself to the natural flow of life so that the power of love can transport me to a new space of peace and acceptance.

the healing words of Achaan Chaa, who reminds us:
Praise and blame, gain and loss, pleasure and sorrow come and go like the wind. To be happy, rest like a great tree in the midst of them all.

When you're depressed, it's as if life loses all its colour. The sun is still shining, but you don't feel the warmth of it on your skin. Flowers are still blooming, but your eyes only see darkness. Birds are still singing in the trees, but your ears only hear the deafening silence of sadness.

I think Managing heartache depression requires a holistic approach.i mean ..i can't just wake up one morning and decide that im going to 'snap out of it'! However, i can take small steps to give myself the best possible chance to benefit from treatment.

A Love haiku by yojinbo makes me think about all shit happened on me ;
What love promises
Is not a happy ending
But a sad farewell.'
'You think you hurt me
By building walls between us:
Fortress or prison?'
'My blood boils away
Flesh, muscle, sinew, all gone
If you say goodbye'
'The venom you used
To say Goodbye, I now use
To kill loneliness.'
~ @Yojinbo

And yes as i always said in my every favourite quotes , life is suck and sucks ...

Pengembangan Diri dan Kepribadian

SIKAP POSITIF untuk pengembangan Diri dan Kepribadian yang baik

Optimisme yang tinggi,
Pantang menyerah,
Percaya diri,
Mudah bersyukur,
Sabar,
Menghargai orang lain,
Menghargai perbedaan,
Mudah berteman,
Mengambil tanggung jawab
Pantang menyalahkan orang lain dan keadaan.

Ketika hujan mulai mengguyur Jakarta,

Anda berdoa: "Tuhan, kalau benar Engkau mengasihiku, maka halau banjir ini masuk ke dalam rumahku."

Bagi-Ku, jangankan menghalau air masuk ke dalam rumahmu, membelah laut saja Aku mampu. Tetapi kali ini, Aku ingin menunjukkan kasih-Ku kepadamu dengan cara yang berbeda, yakni dengan membiarkan air itu masuk ke dalam rumahmu.

Tujuannya, Aku ingin kamu belajar berenang...karena Aku sudah mempersiapkan perkerjaan baru untukmu, dengan posisi dan gaji yang lebih tinggi...semuanya jauh lebih baik dari pekerjaanmu yang sekarang. Namun dalam pekerjaan itu kamu harus bisa berenang. Maka inilah cara-Ku untuk melatihmu berenang agar kamu dapat sukses dalam pekerjaan barumu nanti."

• Jangan menjadi orang yang kaku dan tertutup
• Buku pikiran
• Lihat banyak kesempatan
• Ambil keputusan pada saat emosi positif
• Tenangkan pikiran
• Sikap positif

me...me...me...it's just me....

CHOCOLATES AND LIFE PHILOSOPHY

FOR THE LOVE OF CHOCOLATES!!!!!!

• "This guy found a bottle on the ocean, and he opened it and out popped a genie, and he gave him three wishes. The guy wished for a million dollars, and poof! there was a million dollars. Then he wished for a convertible, and poof! there was a convertible. And then, he wished he could be irresistible to all women... poof! he turned into a box of chocolates."
• "Eating Chocolate makes my clothes shrink"
• "Milk chocolate is a dairy product"
• "Money Talks. CHOCOLATE Sings."
• "Hell hath no fury like a woman who has sworn off fudge and chocolate."
• “I never met a piece of CHOCOLATE I didn’t like.”
• “Chocolate is cheaper than therapy, and you don’t need an appointment.”
• “I have this theory that chocolate slows down the aging process..… it may not be true, but do I dare take the chance?”
• “There’s nothing better than a good friend, except a good friend with CHOCOLATE.”
• “All you need is love. But a little bit of chocolate now and then doesn’t hurt.”
• “Nine out of ten people like chocolate. The tenth person always lies.” – John Tullius.
• “There are four basic foods groups: milk chocolate, dark chocolate, white chocolate and chocolate truffles.”
• “The best things in life are chocolate.”
• “Forget love, I’d rather fall in chocolate.”
• “I could give up chocolate but I’m not a quitter.”
• “Strength is the capacity to break a chocolate bar into four pieces with your bare hands – and then eat just one of the pieces.” – Judith Viorst.
• “The 12-step chocoholics program: Never be more than 12 steps away from CHOCOLATE!” – Terry Moore.
• “I am not overweight. I am CHOCOLATE enriched.”
• “Chocolate doesn’t make the world go round….. but it certainly makes the ride worthwhile!”
• “So much CHOCOLATE. So little time!”
• "Do Not Disturb CHOCOLATE Fantasy in Progress"
• “Life is like a box of chocolates..… you never know what you’re gonna get.” – Forrest Gump.

GRACEFUL NIGHT ISN'T ALWAYS THERE

I know that........
there is only one man can make you be yourself and encourage your heart

and...
there are a lot of people out there
but you can only make yourself sure that..
you can only count on yourself

you know....
life is so funny

when..it is...
life in suffer without pain and torture
means nothing

world is not enough when you know that
this all mean a competition

so....where can you find
truly relationship and also friendship?
do you get what I mean?

MY SONG TODAY EXPRESS MY END UP WAY

At first I was afraid, I was petrified
I kept thinkin' I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights just thinking how you’ve done me wrong
And I grew strong, I learned how to get along

And so you're back from outer space,
I just walked in to find you here with that, that look upon your face
I should have changed my fucking lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I’d have known for just one second you'd be back to bother me.

Oh now go, walk out the door
Just turn around now, you're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble? Did you think I'd lay down and die?

Oh not I, I will survive
Yeah, as long as I know how to love, I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live,
I've got all my love to give,
I will survive

I will survive
Yeah, yeah...

It took all the strength I had just not to fall apart,
I’m tryin' hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights just feelin' sorry for myself,
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high.

And you’ll see me with somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person still in love with you.
And so you thought you’d just drop by and you expect me to be free,
But now I'm saving all my lovin' for someone who's lovin' me,

Oh now go, walk out the door.
Just turn around now, you're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble? Did you think I'd lay down and die?

Oh not I, I will survive
Yeah, as long as I know how to love I know I'll be alive,
I've got all my life to live,
I've got all my love to give,
I will survive

I will survive
Yeah, yeah…

MY CHOCOLATE RULES

If you've got melted chocolate all over your hands, you're eating it too slowly Chocolate covered raisins, cherries, orange slices & strawberries all count as fruit, so eat as many as you want The problem: How to get 2 pounds of chocolate home from the store in a hot car. The solution: Eat it in the parking lot. Diet tip: Eat a chocolate bar before each meal. It'll take the edge off your appetite and you'll eat less A nice box of chocolates can provide your total daily intake of calories in one place. Isn't that handy? If you can't eat all your chocolate, it will keep in the freezer. But if you can't eat all your chocolate, what's wrong with you? If calories are an issue, store your chocolate on top of the fridge. Calories are afraid of heights, and they will jump out of the chocolate to protect themselves. If I eat equal amounts of dark chocolate and white chocolate, is that a balanced diet? Don't they actually counteract each other? Money talks. Chocolate sings. Chocolate has many preservatives. Preservatives make you look younger. Q. Why is there no such organization as Chocoholics Anonymous? A. Because no one wants to quit. If not for chocolate, there would be no need for control top pantyhose. An entire garment industry would be devastated Put "eat chocolate" at the top of your list of things to do today. That way, at least you'll get one thing done.

MY FAVOURITE SONG

Kiss from a Rose

(seal) 1994 There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea. You became the light on the dark side of me. Love remained a drug that’s the high and not the pill. But did you know, That when it snows, My eyes become large and, The light that you shine can be seen. Baby, I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey. ...kiss from a rose on the grey. Ooh, The more I get of you, Ooh................... Stranger it feels, yeah. (l) And now that your rose is is in bloom. (l) A light hits the gloom on the grey. (l) Kiss Me out of the bearded barley, nightly, beside the green grass. Swing, swing, swing the spinning step, you wear those shoes and I will wear that dress. Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight, lead me out on the moonlit floor. Lift your open hand, strike up the band and make the fire flies dance, silver moon's sparkling, so kiss me. Kiss me down by the broken tree house, swing me upon its hanging tire. Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat, we'll take the trail marked on your father's map. Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight, lead me out on the moonlit floor. Lift your open hand, strike up the band and make the fire flies dance, silver moon's sparkling, so kiss me. Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight, lead me out on the moonlit floor. Lift your open hand, strike up the band and make the fire flies dance, silver moon's sparkling, so kiss me. So kiss me So kiss me

HEALING QUOTES

This collection of healing quotes will bring a dose of comfort to your soul.

Sometimes we hurt. Sometimes our hearts ache. Sometimes we cry out in pain.

In your quest to heal and recover from the hurts that are part of life, you may be seeking for words of inspiration to guide you in times of sorrow.

Reasons might not make sense during periods of intense pain and suffering, and yet when given time and compassion, the sorrow would somehow lessen in intensity.

Getting in touch with nature during times of hurt is very soothing for the soul. As Deepak Chopra observes, "If I find a green meadow splashed with daisies and sit down beside a clear-running brook, I have found medicine. It soothes my hurts as well as when I sat in my mother’s lap in infancy, because the Earth really is my mother, and the green meadow is her lap."

And sometimes we have to go from one extreme before we can end up at the other end. As Marcel Proust points out, "We are healed of a suffering only by experiencing it in full."

Usually when you've hit the lowest point, the only thing that can happen is an upswing to the road of recovery.

Meanwhile, hang on and enjoy these healing quotes!

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A lot of people say they want to get out of pain, and I'm sure that's true, but they aren't willing to make healing a high priority. They aren't willing to look inside to see the source of their pain in order to deal with it.
-- Lindsay Wagner

All healing is first a healing of the heart.
-- Carl Townsend

Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it.
-- Helen Keller

Eventually you will come to understand that love heals everything, and love is all there is.
-- Gary Zukav

For your born writer, nothing is so healing as the realization that he has come upon the right word.
-- Catherine Drinker Bowen

Forgiving does not erase the bitter past. A healed memory is not a deleted memory. Instead, forgiving what we cannot forget creates a new way to remember. We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future.
-- Lewis B. Smedes

Healing is a matter of time, but it is sometimes also a matter of opportunity.
-- Hippocrates

Healing may not be so much about getting better, as about letting go of everything that isn't you - all of the expectations, all of the beliefs - and becoming who you are.
-- Rachel Naomi Remen

"Healing," Papa would tell me, "is not a science, but the intuitive art of wooing nature."
-- W.H. Auden

Healing takes courage, and we all have courage, even if we have to dig a little to find it.
-- Tori Amos

Healing yourself is connected with healing others.
-- Yoko Ono

Humor is healing.
-- Brad Garrett

I am not bound for any public place, but for ground of my own where I have planted vines and orchard trees, and in the heat of the day climbed up into the healing shadow of the woods.
-- Wendell Berry

I had NO IDEA that mothering my own child would be so healing to my own sadness from my childhood.
-- Susie Bright

I have a couple of girlfriends who are like, healing. We take care of each other. They know when I need to be taken care of.
-- Maggie Gyllenhaal

I think music in itself is healing. It's an explosive expression of humanity. It's something we are all touched by. No matter what culture we're from, everyone loves music.
-- Billy Joel

I've experienced several different healing methodologies over the years - counseling, self-help seminars, and I've read a lot - but none of them will work unless you really want to heal.
-- Lindsay Wagner

Live your life from your heart. Share from your heart. And your story will touch and heal people's souls.
-- Melody Beattie

Love one another and help others to rise to the higher levels, simply by pouring out love. Love is infectious and the greatest healing energy.
-- Sai Baba

Music is very important. It's important as a tool for learning, it can be a tool for healing, it can be no telling what, as long as we remain free to be able to create the music, to be able to experiment and to really research, and to really get time to develop the music.
-- Lester Bowie

Our sorrows and wounds are healed only when we touch them with compassion.
-- Buddha

The art of healing comes from nature, not from the physician. Therefore the physician must start from nature, with an open mind.
-- Philipus Aureolus Paracelsus

The greatest healing therapy is friendship and love.
-- Hubert H. Humphrey

The practice of forgiveness is our most important contribution to the healing of the world.
-- Marianne Williamson

The soul is healed by being with children>
-- Fyodor Dostoyevsky

The words of kindness are more healing to a drooping heart than balm or honey.
-- Sarah Fielding

There is something beautiful about all scars of whatever nature. A scar means the hurt is over, the wound is closed and healed, done with.
-- Harry Crews

To heal from the inside out is the key.
-- Wynonna Judd

We need to give each other the space to grow, to be ourselves, to exercise our diversity. We need to give each other space so that we may both give and receive such beautiful things as ideas, openness, dignity, joy, healing, and inclusion.
-- Max de Pree